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Friday, December 31, 2010

first post!!!

Today is the first day in 2011...This is my first post in 2011 as well..

Wootz....

This will be just a simple post...

My feeling for this moment will be mixed all together....

Feeling happy because its a new start for the whole year.

Feeling sad because I am going back to Batu Pahat soon.

Feeling just ok ok because I am coming to Kuching in just 28 more days.

Hopes that 2011 is a blessing year for me....=)

Friday, December 17, 2010

感谢主

虽然有一点迟,但是还是要感谢主;赞美主!!!

想不想知道为什么吗?

那好,让我来揭晓吧!!!

让我们所有人都很震惊 !!!

我的小姑全家要认识主了!!!

感谢主!!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

讨厌你

我讨厌你!!!

我讨厌你那种态度!!!

你知道吗?因为你,家务宁日。。。

古有云:“家家有本难念的经。”

我十分赞同这句话。。。

可是,为什么我家的经特别难念呢?

你与我们同在时,我感到十分不安!!!

因为你的任性,让我夹在中间。。。

你长大了,为什么你的思想那么幼稚?

要到何时你才会醒悟??

我们等那一天等到颈项都长了。。。

家本来是我的安乐窝。。。

可是却被你搞的家无宁日!!!!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

???

星期日去做礼拜,是一个很好的讲道,是说子女的责任。

做子女的都有做错的时候就应该道歉。牧师提起说要回乡自己的过错并向父母道歉。

但回想起来,我一件都想不起来!!

看来我做的错事多到不知该向哪件事道歉。

嗨!!不想了!!

自希望下次不要再犯错了。

愿主耶稣一直与我同在,避免我犯错。

2010年年尾假期1

很快的,我的假期就过了一个星期了。我的假期好闷哦!!!每天就是吃喝拉撒!!不过也好,在巴都巴辖根本不可能有如此享受。

家里真好!!每天都可以吃到妈妈的家常便饭,无需担心每日要吃什么。。。好开心好享受。。可是美好的时刻都不会长久。多么希望时间永永远远停留在这里。我的假期大约有一个月半的时间,我要好好把握。我要吃个够够、玩到爽爽的、睡到饱饱的。。。哎呀!!!不行啊!!要减肥啊!!家里也有冷冰冰的水果。。。呵呵!!抗拒不了啊!!!算了!吃到肥嘟嘟先,回到巴都巴辖再减肥吧!

好了,不讲假期的事了。回到假期前,我面对一连串的考试。

第一次在师范学院考试,完全毫无头绪,简直是硬着头皮去考的。根本没信心,只希望不会不及格。。

还有感谢我的朋友帮我庆祝我的十八岁的生日。第一次在外地庆祝我的生日感觉不同哦!!但是还是在家比较爽。。因为有妈妈煮的寿面还有一大堆的美食。哈哈!!!

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

secret!!!

here is my own secret world...

here is not the secret for those who read my blog !!!

i dunno wad happen???

the only things i know is when im with you i feel so guilty,not comfortable and its very weird!!!

sms u,no reply....

is dis the person i knew when we meet on the first time????

did i do something wrong 2 u???

u didn't tell me the matter so i do not know anythgs...

pls lar...tell me wad happen....

im going 2 b crazy without knowing wad happen

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Confuse

Today,I had my first paper in IPG Kampus Tun Hussein Onn.I think I had do my best on it.However,I don't think i can achieve good results as most of the answer I gave was wrong.What I can do is pray that the marker who mark my paper can be kind-hearted and linience.

Now,the most confuse is why she does not want to talk to me?Did I do some thing wrong and make you unhappy? If yes I would like to apologize to you.However,you din say anything so I really don't understand what are you thinking about...I message you,you din't reply me.I really can't get your mind without a word speak from you.Can you explain to me?

Really confuse till I cant have a good sleep.Lord,may your holy spirit came upon me and touch on her heart!!!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

study mood?!@#$%^&*()

i want study mood...

exam is juz around the corner

i haven prepare it

this is the first examination im gonna sit at batu pahat

excited...

worried...

happy....

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

boring

having class now.but its so boring...

there nothing for me to do

dunno wad is teacher talking about...

im a noob

Thursday, July 29, 2010

No Tittle

Yeah!!!I can survive here for 1 month n 1 day.Not bad mar!!!Hehe!Yesterday,I and my friends such as Rebecca,Wan Xin,Kunga,Hui Min,Jie Ying,Suk Yong and others went to celebrate 1 month at Batu Pahat.We were so happy and have fun.This was the first time we went out eat together and as well we were so full.The foods were very nice.Hope that we can went out and eat together.Now Im countdown the holidays.Muahahahaha.My holidays is quite long but i have to come back here on the 14 September.This is because before that i were informed that my Hari Raya Holidays were till 14 days.However,yesterday 1 notice was out and written our raya holiday will be postponed to 19.OH GOSH!!!I want to change flight!!!But but....the flight on 19 was sold out n there is flight on 18 SEPT.However,i was informed that changing 1 ticket cost me another Rm 311.I don't have that much money!!!Therefore,I have to come back on 14.Yian Ping,i cant join u all to Damai trip!!!Sorry!!!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Miss Home

I miss my home.I want talk to my parents!!!However,whenever they phone me i only can talk for not more than 5 minutes just because the telephone is very expensive.I can only use sms.Last time I use sms they scold me.Now,they say telephone bills very expensive have to use sms.What The Hell!!How dare u say that to me!!!I only come here for 2 weeks,and I miss 2 of you.But because of the telephone bills,you say wait next time talk on it.It means I have to keep all those things in my bottom of heart!!!sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, July 5, 2010

First post regarding at Batu Pahat

OMG!!!I just reach IPG Campus Tun Hussein Onn not more than 2 weeks,I already fall sick!!!I can adapt to the environment here.Just that,when I check the aif ticket to go back Kuching for holidays,the price is super duper expensive.Therefore,I called back and ask my dad to double check the ticket.At the mean time I also ask dad to check the air ticket for the year end holidays.I just want to compare the price so that i can claim from government to minimize the lost I face.However,they seems like don't understand what i mean.I don't want keep on spending their money!!!!Today,i start my first lesson.Its still ok in the morning.There is no bad news.For the afternoon time,i have 2 bad news.One is i have to sit for test for the subject PJ which I have to do sit up,push up and all those exercise and the worst thing is i have to finish running 2.4km in 12 minutes.Another bad news is I have to buy a keyboard which cost me RM1500.My stamina to do exercise is very low!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I scare I fail!!!I have never go for music lesson.I have to learn all those music codes and bla bla bla!!!therefore,do I choose the right path?May God Bless Me and always guide me all the way on.I really need YOU!!!I haven do my medical check up!!!My borang perjanjian have pos back to my parents.Im so fan nao!!!!

Friday, June 25, 2010

Last post before to Batu Pahat

Tomorrow,I am going to leave Kuching again.I just came back from national service last 2 weeks.But now,I have to go Batu Pahat, Johor the next day which is 26 June 2010.I am going to miss my family,my sweet sweet home and my lovely classmates.All of my classmates are going to separate soon.Some are going to stay at Kuching ,Kuala Lumpur,Kedah,Singapore and other places.All the best to all of my classmates.

Good Luck to Awong and Esther who had study at Swinburne now.Jia you !!!Good Luck to Kimberly who are going to study at Sunway College.Tan Chee Chee,Good Luck to you as well who already study at Sunway College.For those who studying for Form 6-June Ling,Hui Pheng, Lily Lim,Jong Zheng Wei,Chin Wei,Victoria Tho and Yvonne Thian,Jia Jia Jia Youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!For Yun Chuan,Jeffrey Jong and Ah Pong at matang polytechnic,good luck and all the best.For those who saty at Kuching and study A-level at here,jia you!!!!

Good luck to Khai Shin(Genius),May Ling(One of the twins),Janice Liew(Darling) and Caulyn(Moo~~)who gonna to go KL study.

Good Luck to Yinnie who going to study alone at Kedah.


Good luck to Yen Shing and Lester Ling who had been studying at Singapore for the past 2 months.

For those who haven find tiok mission (especially pingudabendan),hope that you all can find tiok as soon as possible.Good Luck,Jia You and all the best!!!!Take care as well!!

Monday, June 14, 2010

国明服务之旅

回来这么多天,也还没更新部落格。好吧!!!我现在就描述我的国民服务之旅。

三月二十八日,爸爸驱车带我到Stadium Perpaduan集合。当天,我的心情既紧张又害怕。当初我是有一百个不愿意参与国民服务,我甚至还向做逃兵。然而,最终我还是完成我的国民服务。我不后悔我参与了国民服务。我们必须在Stadium Perpaduan 集合,然后乘坐国民服务(JLKN)的巴士到我的营地,那就是Kem Puncak Permai,Tondong Bau。

到了那里,我们必须登记、交健康检查的报告、登记银行户口、行李检查及分配宿舍。整个过程好复杂、漫长及辛苦。我必须把我所带来的东西一一搬进宿舍。我的宿舍是P7-Kompeni Delta。刚开始我只认识Michelle Wong和Yvonne Thian。之前,我知道Victoria Tho是谁,但不成说过一句话。Mok Siew Fang是我在巴士上刚认识的新朋友。第一天,我们四个人就容在一起。然而,我们的宿舍都不同。但,不要紧,因当天集合所有营员。三月二十九日还有来自西莲和斯里阿曼的营员抵达这里。

吃完午餐后,我们都各自回宿舍整理东西。下午时分,我们被通知我们得让出P6和P7的宿舍,因为来自西马的营员很迟才会到达这里。有关当局害怕会吵到我们,所以才做出此安排。所以,我和他们都到Michelle Wong的宿舍-P3借住一晚。我又得搬我所有东西到那里去。第一个晚上,我辗转难眠,无法入睡。隔天一大早就打电话回家倾诉。我被朋友笑说是大小姐。哈哈!!!

三月二十九日,我把握的东西搬回我的宿舍。然后,我躺在我的床上看书。不久,西马的朋友一一走进来。当时,只有一位华人来自西马,其余只是土著。中午时分,又有一班来自西连和斯里阿曼的朋友。这时,我又认识一位华人朋友,我还期盼有更多华人来我这个宿舍。然而,期盼变成泡沫了。所以,总结来说我的宿舍只有三个华人。但没关系,我的面对现实,且要养成一个马来西亚的观念。这天晚上,我们所有人都必须把手机交上。晚上大约十点回宿舍睡觉。

三月三十日,我四点就起身,因为五点必须到操场集合。从这天起,我们必须唱国歌,也就是Negaraku、国民服务之歌-Wira Wirawati、一个马来西亚理念的歌曲-1 Malaysia和Jalur Gemilang。过后,我们还得念Ikrar和祷告。大约早上六点,我们就开始做体操。到了早上七点,我们享用早餐。当天,我们有一个讲座。

四月一日,我回家了。这是因为我是基督徒。所有基督徒将回家,因为我们将庆祝耶稣受难日,也就是四月二日。基督徒将会在四月四日五时前回营地。但,我无需那么早回去,因为星期一是清明节,是华人祭拜祖先的日子。所以,我放假到四月六日。

四月七日,我很想回家。我无法适应那里的环境,尤其是我与土著的沟通方式。但,我必须忍受,毕竟这是政府所提倡的活动。直到了四月十日,我崩溃了!!!我打电话回家,我一直压抑着我的心情。我本以为我能坚持不哭,可是我还是无法忍受。最终我还是大哭了一场!!老师还拿我没办法!!父母担心死了!!翌日,父母来探望我,我被开导了,我的心也敞开了。

四月十二日,有两位延服兵役的新成员来到我的宿舍。所以,我的宿舍现在有五位华人了。我们刚刚认识,有一点生疏!!!

四月十四日,我处营地。我不是做逃兵噢!!!我得出席一个升学营,假UNIMAS大学!!!这是为期两天一夜的升学营。面试和书面考试就在那两天进行。面试完后,我并不满意我的表现。但不要紧,至少我拥有面世的经验。四月十七日,早上八点就得回营里。

四月二十三日,我却能上下都酸痛,难受极了!!今天也无需操步就能拥有电话,真开心!!!

四月二十八至五月二日,我们拥有假期。所有人都各自回家,营里只剩下来西马和住比较偏僻的营员。一些营员就借住朋友的家,然后游玩古晋城。

五月五日,我的颈很痒,然而我去恶很固执,不去看医生。朋友们都纷纷劝我,可是我却忠言逆耳。

五月七日是个倒霉日!!!早上,体能主任选人来念Ikrar。他所选的人身体不舒服,所以他们就自作主张换人,换成原定的人来念 ,结果被发现。我们所有人都被训了一顿。早上八点,我们有迷你游戏的比赛,我的组只获得安慰奖。今天的晚餐真是气死人,因为Jurulatih Bertugas (JB)一直在唠唠叨叨,直到六点半我们才享用晚餐。晚上还得上课。到了十点才拥有电话。开机后发现有三通未接电话,而且是妈妈打来的。他们很担心因为我连续三天未打电话回家。

五月十一日,到三马丹附近进行枪击活动。这是我人生中唯一一次握抢M-16。Delta和Charlie将在今天参与枪击活动。每人将有二十里子弹。最终我获得二十分。幸亏我没活的零蛋!!!我们约下午一时抵达营里。下午二时半,我们玩Flying Fox。玩这项游戏还得啪三层楼高的梯子,过后从那里滑下来。快了及爽的感觉过完了,几十秒就抵达了终点。真不够过瘾!!!!

翌日,我们Delta和Charlie玩Flying Fox、Brumah Bridge和Postman Walk,而Alpha 和Bravo去枪击。Brumah Bridge和Postman Walk需要很强的平衡感。我只玩Brumah Bridge罢了,因为我实在很害怕完这项游戏。下午是枪击比赛的颁奖典礼。枪击高手是来自我们的Kompeni Delta-Billie ;但我们的组没拿冠军。总冠军是Alpha组、亚军是Bravo和季军是我的组。我的组无法得冠军是因为男子很多得红眼病。

五月十三日,Kelas Kenegaraan开始了。我认识许多新朋友。

五月十五日,来自西连、斯里阿曼和西马的营员都到三马丹去参观三大营地的运动会,剩下我一个孤苦伶仃。他们晚上九点才到营地。

五月十六日是教师节,也是我的Darling,Janice Liew的生日。我又传短讯及拨电话祝贺她哦!!

五月十七日,我们Kompeni Delta被通知晚上八点到操场集合。我们所有人都感到慌张,因为近日来,男生都惹事生非。我们心想老师一定是要给我们处罚。可是,虚惊一场,老师只是要分发腰带罢了。

五月十八日,我们玩Kembara Halangan和A-Frame。这两项游戏都需要整组的合作才能完成。

五月十九日,我被获通知我将出席师训课程的面试,开心极了!!!!

五月二十四日,哥哥的生日,也是我面试的日子。我被考官责骂穿错鞋子。面试时,有许多问题我都回答不出来,他所说的话,深深的可在我的脑海里。我感到失落,害怕及不断问我自己能被录取吗!!

五月二十六日,Timbalan Menteri Pertahanan Awam莅临我们的营地。我们准备了舞蹈、Silat、操步、Kembara Halangan和Tali Tinggi让他欣赏。最后我们与他合照。

翌日,我们有Kembara Halangan的比赛。Kompeni Alpha有的了总冠军,而Kompeni Delta得了亚军。

五月三十日,我们华人和马来人到森林实习。达雅族没随我们去,应为他们已回乡过年了。

六月一日和二日是达雅节,达雅族回家庆祝。营里只剩下华人和马来人。所以,老师带我们出外逛逛。

六月三日,我们所有人都到森林里住一晚。我学习了如何搭帐篷、煮饭、煮鸡肉等等。这是我人生第一次进森林,并且过夜。我为了证明我不是千金小姐,我亲自煮饭给所有人吃。事实证明了我不是千金小姐,我会煮饭,没烧焦。晚上,我们还得生火。我们约九点走遍整个森林。我们无法用手电筒照我们路途。但,我们手拉着手走。走完后,我们集合在一片土地。我们参与了Pendengaran Aktif 的活动。它的宗旨是考验我们晚上的视力与听力。我们沿着刚才来的路回帐篷。回的路程,因为山很陡,所以我被拉着走,那知太快,我滑倒,做大藩薯。我一整夜都没睡觉,我陪伴我的营友看火。我的手掌被蚊子叮。我只合眼约一小时,但没睡觉。隔日,我们约五时,收拾我们的帐篷以及那里的场所。过后,我们便出发回营地。我们约七时到操场,点算人数及检查物品后,我们纷纷回宿舍打理自己。下午。我们有拔河比赛。我们女子组-Kompeni Delta获得第一名;但无法获得总冠军,只因男子那第三名。当天下午,也是运动比赛的闭幕典礼和颁奖典礼。运动比赛的总冠军落入Apha组l。

六月九日是操步比赛。我们Kompeni Delta是唯一一组采用无需用手来量距离。比赛当时,我们的表现没有比彩排时来的好。我们所有人都很失望,因辜负了老师对我们的期望。最后,我们的Kompeni Delta拿了亚军。冠军落入Bravo组。最佳男操步来自Apha组,至于女的是来自Bravo组。

六月十日是我们的闭幕典礼。我们有一连串的活动要进行。早上,我们有闭幕仪式,所有人得到操场集合。颁发毕业证书、颁奖典礼、致词、操步表演等等都在早上进行。当天,营员的家长也受邀请来参观营员的闭幕典礼。这一纪获得最佳男营员和女营员的殊荣的营员都来自西马。闭幕典礼后,我们所有人都呈现我们最后一次的表演。晚上,我们有晚宴。有关当局准备了较丰盛的晚餐给我们。当晚也有歌唱比赛和迷你游戏。我们约凌晨一时三十分才结束我们的晚宴。回去后,我们在宿舍有一个小聚会。我们各自都说出自己的心声,眼泪不听得落下。难舍的心情让我们伤心。

六月十一日,是我们分开的日子。晚宴后,我并没有睡觉。我一直盼望早上五点不要来临,可是那是不可能的。约早上五时,我更换好衣服,就到P6、7和八的朋友道别,难舍的心情依然藏在心里。我以为我可以忍着,但难舍的心情无法掩盖,最终我落下眼泪了。心情好难受啊!!!早上七时正,巴士出发了。我们正式的离开营地了。当出来的时候,有一千个理由不要来,现在却有一千个理由不想离开,好矛盾啊!!!

参加完国民服务,我学了很多东西。例如:人与人之间必须沟通,并且必须掌握好各族的语言、良好的行为也能从各种活动中栽培出来、学会除了华语歌以外的歌等等。在营里我学会Bapa yang Kekal、Gemuruh、Tinggal Kenangan、Wira Wirawati、两个版本的1 Malaysia和Kenangan Terindah。

Bapa yang Kekal是我在Kelas Kerohanian 课学来的。歌词如下:

Kasih yang sempurna
Ku terima darimu
Bukan kerna kebaikanmu
Hanya...oleh kasih karuniamu
Kau pulihkan aku
Layakkan tuk dapat
Memanggilmu Bapa
Kau beri yang kupinta
Saatku mencari ku mendapatkan
Ku ketuk pintumu dan kau bukakan
Sebab kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal Owh Owh...
Takkan kau biarkan
Aku melangkah hanya sendirian
Kau selalu ada bagiku
Sebab kau Bapaku
Bapa yang kekal

Wira Wirawati和1Malaysia是早上集合必唱的歌曲。歌词如下:

Wira Wirawati

Wira wirawati harapan bangsa
Tiba masa kita berjasa
Kita sahut cabaran
Bergerak seiringan
Demi mencapai wawasan
Kenali rakan pelbagai budaya
Selami warisan kita yang kaya
Bersama bergandingan
Tiada perbezaan
Kita warga Malaysia
Berkhidmat untuk negara
Berbakti penuh setia
Satu hasrat satu semangat satu tekad
Bersama
Kami wira wirawati negara
Kini masa kami berjaya
Kami sahut cabaran
Bergerak seiringan
Kami pasti mencapai wawasan
Kami sahut cabaran
Bersama bergandingan
Berkhidmat untuk negara
Malaysia

1 Malaysia

Berdiri teguh di bumi
Nyata pupuk semangat 1 Malaysia
Sepakat rakyat didahulukan
Pencapaian diutamakan

Perpaduan mendapat rahmat
Toleransi kaum amalan bersama
Kejayaan kita bangunkan
1Malaysia

Dalam capai satu tujuan
Tanggungjawab kita semua
Jadi teras bangsa mulia
Kita bina 1 Malaysia

1 Malaysia jadi pegangan
Rukun negara teras panduan
1 Malaysia benteng negara
Rakyat Malaysia taat setia

1Malaysia untul semua

Tinggal Kenangan、Kenangan Terindah和Gemuruh是我从朋友那里学来的。歌词如下:

Tinggal Kenangan

Pernah ada
Rasa cinta
Antaara kita kini tinggal kenangan
Inin kulupakan
Semua tentang dirimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
Oh...bintangku

Jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
Disini aku merindukan dirimu Owh Owh
Kini ku cuba mencari penggantimu
Namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
Oh kekasih

Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpa mu
Aku yang rentang karena
Cinta yang telah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungkan ku
Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung telah berdetak
Selama itu pun aku mampu
Untuk mengenang mu
Dari mu ku temankan hidupku
Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati
Yea....
Bila yang tertulis untuk ku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan ku jadilah kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang telah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Gemuruh

Bila bertalu
Rentak dikalbu
Hasrat yang tersirat
Semakin ku buru

Bila bergema
Laungan gempita
Harapan bernyala
Nadiku berganda

Gemuruh jiwa
Semagat membara
Dari puncak ingin ke angkasa
Berkalungkan bintang
Berkelipan...
Menyerlah jauh dari yang biasa

Ungkapan ini bukan sekadar bermimpi
Segalanya pastikan terbukti nanti
Gemuruh jiwa semangat membara
Dari puncak ingin ke angkasa
Berkalungkan bintang berkelipan
Menyerlah jauh dari yang biasa

Saturday, May 1, 2010

01.05.2010

从营地回来后,我都没有来我的部落格更新我个人的状况。回到家里的感觉真是爽。然而,我似乎已经习惯了营地里的生活,我每天大约在早上四点就会起生。真是的!!!!不过没关系了!!!因为家里的食物真是美味无比。我无需吃营里难吃的食物,那里的食物既难吃又麻辣。我已经慢慢适应那里的环境了。很快的,我的假期又要结束了。那就是明天,我就要回去石隆门那里的营地了。回去后,我要多多锻炼体能,因为接下来有数十种户外活动需要健硕的身体。不然,我只能饱受失败的滋味。

27。04。2010 是我从营地里释放出来的日子。爸爸接我出来后,我们就去享受辣沙。与此同时,我们也约了我的四姑一起吃早餐。我的四姑问我是否要完成剩下的国民服务的日子。顿时,我犹豫了。我不知我是否应该继续还是修读中六。我曾经下定决心要延后我的国民服务,继续我的学业。可是,经过我与我的家人和朋友沟通后,我改变心意了。我决定我要服完兵役后我才回去修读中六。然而,现今的问题是学校允许我放假三个星期吗?接着,如果我的假期批准,我回去我跟得上进度吗?我希望我能跟上吧!!!翌日,也就是28。04。2010,下午时分,我和几位朋友去看电影及唱卡拉OK。好久没与他们碰面了,真的好想他们。

29。04。2010是倒霉的日子。我整个早上及下午都无法上网。气死人!!!害我无法上网看下一站,幸福。隔天一样的情况也发生在我身上。真是的!!!

明天我就回营地了。我好想念家里的食物、古晋的美食、朋友以及家里的所有一切。朋友们,祝我幸运吧!!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

06/04/2010

Time flies so fast!!!!!!!!!!Today,I'm going to go back my camp.I'm so scare now!!!!!!!!!!everyone must know what i scare of!I'm so scare about the up doomz doomz!!!Hope that teacher will no more that cruel.Bye bye to my friends for thus moment!!!Meet you all at 27 April if all of you are free.For my cousin only,congratulation to you that you are going to engaged with Jeff Koko.

05/04/2010

今日是淑霞的专属日子,因为今天是她的生日。

愿她天天开心、心想事成及身体健康.

耶稣复活节

耶稣受死后的第三天,耶稣就复活了。星期日那天,我和教会里的所有人都庆祝耶稣复活的大日子。耶稣为了清洗我们的罪而甘愿受罚,他牺牲了他自己而被钉在十字架上。他是为了我们而复活,我们的存在只因由主耶稣的出现,所以我们必须庆祝耶稣的复活日子。

Friday, April 2, 2010

NS

I'm come back from national service at Bau camp.I think everybody will felt weird right?I came back to celebrate Good Friday,Esther Monday and Ching Ming.I'm a Christian.Therefore,my holiday start from 1 April until 6 April.

National service is not nice at this moment.Everyday need to sleep late but have to wake up so early.I'm so sleepy everyday.The weather at there is so scorching.It is super duper hot and yet we have to wear long sleeve and long pants.Everyday morning have to do exercise.As all of you know,I don't have exercise spores.On Thursday,we all had been penalize to do up doom doom for 30 times.I didn't do 30 times.I play cheat.Haha.My leg almost having muscle cramp.:(National service live is so tough.I wonder why my friends can stand for it.

I'm in Delta Kompeni.I don't like it.That day our presentation is so poor.I want to be in Charlie or Alpha Kompeni.they have good speaker.I also want to complain thatI'm in P7 and only 3 Chinese people.This few days I keep talking BM and yet its not fluent.My BM is really KNS.When I mix with Melanau,Bidayuh or other races people,I thought I can speak English.But unfortunately I cant.They cant understand.What a pity.

The food at there is so spicy.I cant eat lar.When I saw it,I seldom take.Therefore,I have to go back my dormitory eat cup noodles.Pity right?Oh ya,when there is raining,we have to run from our dormitory to hall or vice verse. This is not the main things I want complaint.The main want is when we queue to take food,there are lots of people jumping queue.Though i ever do that but I'm the only one,for them is a group of people.This make me have to wait for so long then I can have my own meal.

I hope when I go back,there is no penalize system.The "up doom doom" is much much over my limitation.If wira make wrong things should penalize wira and not all people.

Times fly so fast.Now it already second day of my holiday.I'm afraid 6 of April to come.

GOOD FRIDAY

今日是耶稣受难节。我感到荣幸我不需要在营地里度过,我也趁此机会到教堂里领受神的话语。与此同时,我也明白到耶稣被钉在十子架上的原因。我们不应该犯法。神为我们洗脱罪,所以我们应该奉公守法,为神服务。我们不能因为小小的事情就憎恨人、犯法、生气、放弃及不良行为。我们应该学会忍让、宽恕及有信心面对任何事物。

Friday, March 26, 2010

27.03.2010

Puncak Permai Bau Camp here I come.Tomorrow Michelle Wong, Victoria Tho and I are going to that camp.All of us are going to stay at least 2 and a half month.Where as Yian Ping,Lily Lim and Liew Ying are going to Sematan camp.However,before we went to our respective camp,we have to meet at Stadium Perpaduan.This is the last time we meet before I go national service.Friends I might not be able to finish 2 and a half months camp due to my personal reason.Hehex.Friends,I hope got people come and visit me.Hope so.ERM...I felt so sad not because I don't want go national service is just that I'm going to miss my favourite food and my friends.I have to say bye bye to my lovely laksa,''ang ji peng'',pizza,kfc,mum's cook,chicken rice and etc.Oh ya...This is my last post before I go camp.I have to say bye bye to facebook,MSN,blog and favourites drama.Though it is temporary,I will try not to think bout it.I also can't go church at 7th miles there.I'm going to Bau Methodist church.Hehex

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Medical Check Up

This morning,I went to Tanah Putih Clinic for medical check up.It was very complicated.First I have to go register.And before registered,I have to take number then have to queue for register.Registration take me half an hour like that. After that,I have to wait for one hour plus to check up. I go to room 6 and have a checked on my weight,height,blood pressure,pulse rate,eyesight, temperature and colour blindess absence or presence.I'm sad that I become shorter and happy that I lose weight.Later, I went to room 12.I had to collect my urine.Yucky,so disgusting.Then,I had a blood test.Its so painful!!!The next step is go room 4 and have a check on heartbeat.My medical check up ended.I thought I can have a check on my teeth but in the end no checking.The form there got 1 part is on nasal,oral and throat.However,no one ask me to go check this part.I felt so sad.I want to check my teeth and I thought I can ask for an appointment on washing my teeth there.So sad that no one ask me to do that.It was so sad that Imeet some new friends without knowing their name.Hahax.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Blackout

Last night around 10:30p.m. ,the whole Lorong Keranji 4F2 no electric.At that time I was watching televisyen program.I can't do anythings.I can't online.Therefore,I went bed sleep so early.Electric came at around 11:20p.m..I not yet sleep at that time.However,I'm so lazy to came down to online.

Swt

I've receive 1 letter from Public Universities.The university is named University Putra Malaysia. However,I'm not going to take into those course.This is not high nose (hidung tinggi).Haha.I didn't want to go that university is because the course to let me choose all is on socialize to people and some are not relate to the subject I had took during Form 4 and 5.Therefore, I give up that university.Swt!!!!!Will I still received any public university that had my own lovely subject n courses?Hope so !!!But the probability is so low!!!Swt!!!But I still hope I can receive more offer from public university.

HAPPY

My permission to change camp is approved.If my permission turn down,I have to go Ayer Keroh Rekreasi Malacca camp.Luckily is approved.Now,I'm in Puncak Permai Bau camp.Mum and dad can come to visit me.Happy to hear that news.If my friends can come here and visit me is perfectly good.Haha.Thanks Lord for hearing my words when I pray!!!Thanks Lord.Hehe.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

22.03.2010

6 more days to go!!!Sunday morning I have to go to national service.However, until now I don't know which camp should I go.It is so funny.After Sunday I have to wait for several weeks to log in facebook ,MSN ,Hotmail ,Blog, Viwawa and my lovely dramas. Sobz!!!

Thursday, March 18, 2010

18.03.2010

要和不要就在于一念之间。我们通常都处在迷惑当中,不知该选哪一条路。我说得对不对呢?每个人都拥有自己的想法。我常常处在左右不分的状况。我时时刻刻都会犹豫不决,根本不能决定任何事情。听了一些友人的提醒,我开始处在迷雾当中。我失去自我了!!我不能坚定我自己的意志了。可悲啊!!!我还是只能祷告。愿神赐给我力量、光、智慧以及清醒的头脑,并且给我指导,带领我走向正确的道路 。谢谢神垂听我的祷告,我的祷告乃是奉主耶稣之名求。阿们。

Monday, March 15, 2010

Lost

After receiving my SPM results,i'm quite disappointed.I did not achieve the target that I and my parents had set before.I make them down.However, I'm not purposely make them down.I does not fulfill the requirements of the scholarship.As a results,I cannot go for Universities that I want.=(In my mind there is no private Universities as dad told me earlier on.Matriculation is just for those who have good results and poor family to study.So,I had to say bye bye to matriculation. Scholarships also need to hear my bye bye voice.Haha.I only have the way to go Form 6.However, I have no confidence at all to study Form 6.But,dad keep on nag at me say that I should go Form 6.He say this is the only ways to continue my study.In my heart,I felt so sad when I hear that.I keep on asking myself "is that the only road I had to take?"I just don't want to admit the truth. But I had heard lots of people say Form 6 is tough and not easy to study.For me, I have the same opinion as them.I tell my feeling to my dad.However,he keeps on say that I haven study how I know its hard.And he even say that if its hard then I should be more hardworking to do exercise and do more revision.Say is easier than do,am I right?"If I study hard,then I can do well in examination."is this true?Then does this means when I study in Form 5,I'm not hardworking enough?I think I have do my best in it.But just that I still cant achieve the target YOU set for me.I'm totally lost in this moment.Mum is always stand at my side.Mum will always ask and try to understand me.But why cant you?Does there no other ways for me beside studying Form 6.Do I really don't have chances studying at other courses?Now, the only things that I can do is just pray.To the Lord,I just hope that Lord will open my road and help me to decide the road that I should choose.Amen.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Being Cheat!!!

You cheat me!!!You say you won't mind whatever I get you will just admit it.However, you didn't do so.And now you make my feeling downs again.I hate you!!!!

Monday, March 8, 2010

担忧

倒数三天了!!!!三天后,大马教育文凭考试成绩(SPM)将会放榜了。此时此刻,我的心情是非常紧张、担忧及害怕。我很害怕我达不到我所设定的目标。我很担忧我令父母失望,毕竟他们希望我能考获十一科甲等的成绩。我很害怕我辜负了他们的期望。现在再担心已为时已晚了、已为时已晚了。现在,我只能默默的祷告,希望我真的能取得优越的成绩。如果我的成绩不理想,我必定修读中六。我很怕修读中六,因为我很怕我撑不住那艰难的日子。中六不是像中一至中五那样“轻松”。那五年的求学生涯已经折磨我倒要生要死了,再读中六,我不知我还能不能负荷得了吗?我听许多中六生都埋怨中六很难。认识我的人都知道我的学业不怎么样,即不突出,也很平凡,完全不可能读中六。可是,不能读中六,我能干嘛呢?要得到奖学金难如登天啊!!!!我该怎么办???我觉得我的存在根本就是占据无畏的空间。我真的是很无用!!!为什么我会出现在这个世界呢?我发觉无论我做什么都没有人会重视我。算了,顺其自然吧!!!很多人都叫我不要杞人忧天,但说的容易,做的难啊!!!我不能睁一只眼,闭一只眼。我不能坐以待毙,更不能事事都以“船到桥头自然直”来达成所有事。难道我的生命就是如此???我可不可以希望奇迹常常发生在我的身上呢?我希望我能获得奖学金的资助,应为我希望我能直接进入大学。好了不说即将放榜的事情了。现在,我也很担忧我的国民服务营地的问题。前些日子,我获悉我被派去马六甲的营地,我完全没有任何心理准备。想到要离乡背井好几个星期,我就有些害怕与不舍。如今,我只能盼望我申请更换营地的期许能实现罢了!!!愿主能大大的祝福我!!

Friday, March 5, 2010

Feelings

I feel like I'm just a remaining girl.I always use my true heart to stay with them.But then,when I go out with them,I'm just alone.No ones care about me. As times go on, I feel like my existing is just like nothing. Do they really think about me???In my opinion, I am just like one of the particles in the air.I feel like I'm alone. This is not the first time I have this feelings.I feel disappointed.

Last night, I didn't even sleep for any minutes.I think my parents also same as me.Dad worried me so much.We discuss till 12 a.m..Whereas me ,I online till 130a.m.. Later I go to bed.However,I cannot fall asleep.I was thinking about national service things. I still asking myself,do I cares the national service stuff???I did not have any preparation that my camp will be at West Malaysia.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Insomnia

I didn't sleep well last night!!!Do I really cares about national service???When I knew I'm going to Malacca camp,I still can laugh .It was not like when i just received the news that I was chosen for national service.I didn't even sleep last night ar!!!!

OMG!!!

Just now ,Tan Chee Chee message me and tel me that can check the camp I am going for national service.At that time I am so BLUR...I does not know go where to check.I ask her back!!!So i go check when she tell me the outcomes!!!Then,I knew my camp is at Malacca.I did not have the preparation that I'm at West Malaysia's camp.My mum and dad were like...I knew they were worry.However. I don't know what should I say though i still have some joke with them.Now, what should I do???The only things that I can do is just pray to the Lord that I can change the camp.I hope that I can join Puncak Permai Camp.It is quite near to my house compare to Malacca.I have to sit plane to camp at there and I will miss my parents too much!!!!I am not independent enough!!!I hope I can get an scholarship so that I don't need to attend all the activities at the camp!!!!I think it is very tough because I seldom carry out exercise.Can i suit the condition???Does it good for me to try it???I am so blur...Tonight, I think my parents surely can't sleep well.Including me too...Now already 1230 a.m..I am still energetic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Now,i can only pray to the God that I want to have nearer camp so that daddy n mummy can visit during weekends.My darling,if I got the chance to stay at Bau Camp ,you say you will come and visit me.Please keep your promise!!!hehe

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Me???

Who am I???I have lost myself???I'm just a remaining!!!!!!!!!!!!!!No one cares about me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i HATE it!!!!!But I can do any things.Life have to be continued.No matter how hard is it,rite???If i can leave it aside this kind of feeling,it is good.However, I can't.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

February

Today is the last day of February 2010.Time passes so fast.Soon, my SPM results is coming out. Today is also the last day Of Chinese New Year and we call it as "Chap Goh May".I had my dinner to celebrate it.Happy!!!!Wieeee!!!!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

HOPES

If I had the chance ,I hope I am the only one.I no need to suffer that lots to separate my loves to so many parts.It was very hard for me.I am so scare after hearing all those words!!!I think they have the same feeling as me.Can you please don't say it out every times!!!I hopes that you will realize that we all are the same.They like both of us the same.They never gives me more loves compare to you.We are the same.Never change their love to both of us.I knew you always have the opinion that they only loves me and don't love you in your mind for several years.However,I don't think so.If they don't loves you, they wont send you to the place that you should be.Those words u say it out the days before, do u still remember???Though I don't know what is your answer, I will definitely say that those words i so scary and make all of us so disappointed.Can u please realise early!!!!I hopes that u can change all the bad attitudes!!!I hopes that you become more mature.I hopes that all of you can think of me!!!!I'm not that perfect!!!I have my own feeling and the maximum patient.I can't keep those impolite things in my heart!!!I can't just open one eye and close one eye.Please don't always say that just don't quarrel with him.Please don't advise me and say if he say something bout you, you just go away!!!Sorry, I can't do it!!!It is because it already exceed my personal patients.I can't.I hopes I'm the only one.No one quarrel with me.I can have all my things and no need to share with others.Do I selfish?







Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Excited!!!

2 more days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Do I excited???Ya , I think.I'm gonna to meet you guys soon!!!Miss

everybody!!!However, I can't attend my friends visiting.Sobz...

To all my friends :Enjoy your visiting during Chinese New Year!!!!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

DAMAI!!!

We came back yesterday afternoon.So tired!!!I meet triplets le...hehe...They had been to New Zealand for 2 years...Miss them!!!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

愿望表

随这我的几位好朋友都一一为自己设定好自己的诺言,我自己也不容错过。

1。我希望我能在大马教育文凭考试中(SPM)取得部俗的成绩。(但是似乎机会渺茫)

2。我希望我能找到我的人生目标,那就是应该年中六吗?我渴望我能申请到Labuan Matrikulasi,可是好像有痴心妄想。以我的成绩,根本是不可能的事实。然而,我还是希望我的愿望真的成真。

3。我希望他能明白长辈对你的苦心,我们真的盼望你能坚持己念,不轻易放弃。我们是平等的 ,他们并不是偏心。

4。我希望我不再是个经不其考验的人,我渴望我能变得更坚强,不再那么轻易之下就掉眼泪了。

5。我希望我能瘦身成功,应为我渴望有益的健康的体魄,且不希望再受到他人的一样眼光。此外,我也能够轻易买到衣服。

6。我希望我能拥有一双平底高跟鞋。

7。我希望我能与朋友之间的距离不会变得更遥远,反而更亲近。我希望我们之间不会隔阂,也希望拥有很多办法与朋友沟通。

8。我希望我身边的所有人都拥有健康的身体,且能时常笑口常开。



Sunday, January 31, 2010

last day!!

Times passes so fast!!!!Today is the last day of January 2010!!!!The small of February is coming soon!!!Chinese New Year is just around the corner!!!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

EMO

I'm emoing now!!!!Should I kept myself and cry in my own room?I don't like this kind of feeling.Its damn hard to fiind the solution out!!!It need others help as well!!!I hate it!!!

Monday, January 25, 2010

怀念

在众多连续剧里,让我最难忘的莫过于《环珠格格〉〉。这部琼瑶连续剧让我印象深刻,也陪伴了我度过

我的童年。剧里的环珠格格也就是小燕子个性活波萧洒。她的知识不多,所以,她的皇阿玛就让她去

和纪晓岚学习。

皇上检查了格格的功课。这一幕让我印象,也很怀念。

小燕子的诗如下:

走进一间房,
四面都是墙,
抬头见老鼠,
低头见蟑螂。

好好笑吧????

Monday, January 18, 2010

BORED

For the past two days, it was shocked that I can stopped myself not to touch computer. Do you all curious what I had done for those two days? Well , I only watch television at morning and noon time during my saturday. At night, I went to 3 places. Don't think that i go shopping. I'm not... First we go to pharmarcy near King Centre. Mum bought some medicine for brother because he fall sick. Then we go Upwell to bought track suit. It was bored...I only window shopping. I saw many nice clothes. However, mum said buy next time. Haiz. Then, we went Everise. This time again bought brother's shoes and shirts. Again I saw many new clothes that I love it very much. Mum say brother's stuff more important. Again my heart broken again. T________________T

On Sunday morning, papa, mama and me go church.Then, visit my grandma. Afternoon I watch my "pau green sky". About 5 o'clock, we sent my brother back to Matang polytechnic school. After that, went to relative house. Around 8:30p.m.,i went to Wisma Wan, inside it is Selection. I went to bought Detol. Mum say me ellergic. Me really do nothing for that 2 days.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

无助

以前,每当我遇到困扰、心烦和生气的时候,我总会哭、看连续剧、写下我心中的不满在一张纸、睡 觉和到学校与朋友谈天来压抑自己心总的苦衷。可是,如今我已毕业了,无法到校与朋友谈天。以 前,只要我不开心,隔天早上我就会与朋友说话、聊天。虽然我们所讲的不是我心中的苦,但是我暂时把烦恼把抛到九霄云外去。那时的我没有那么的痛苦,无需压得喘不过气来。如今,那些方法 对我来说已是无效了。现在,我很痛苦。我找不到方法来舒解压力和解决问题。我顿时间失去了生 活的方向盘,我无法适应!!!我真的很难过。我希望我能赶快地恢复从前得我。这几天,我在他 们面前只是强颜欢笑,根本不是打从心理的欢笑。这不是真实的我。我真的很希望我能赶快摆脱困扰。欣慈,昨晚,我不是不想跟你说,而是我不知该如何开口,请原谅我

心寒

昨晚,他打了一通电话回家,他说了一句话让我们全家人都很心寒。我们听了都不知所措,真的真的。。。我们该怎么办呢???? 该如何是好呢???要怎样他才不会轻易放弃呢?该鼓励的我们都给了,我们也多朋友及亲戚多给他支持。他会不会无动于衷呢?我们真得很希望你能坚持到底,这可是难得的机会。

。。。

我的生活变得乱糟糟。。。。

不知从何时开始我的思想都充满着不好的回忆。

我很困扰。。。

昨晚她告诉了我一些事,顿时间我无法接受。

我真的不知道我那些行为会让你感到心痛。

我知道我错了。

可是,我却没有那个勇气承认。

她落泪了!!!

那更让我不之所错。

往日我是不是过分了?

我真的不知道!!!

我该怎么办?

我很茫然!!!

我感觉到我快要崩溃了。

我不知该向谁倾诉我心中的秘密。

我很想哭。

算了,听天由命吧!!!

Monday, January 11, 2010

烦恼

近日来,我们全家都被烦恼围绕着。昨日,妈妈跟我说了许多话。在言语间,我很惭愧、懊恼、悲伤和痛苦。我不知道是不是我自己的过错,让妈妈对我很失望及忧虑。我很难过,我不知道我能为这个家做点什么,我觉得我是一个窝囊废,不能减轻家里的负担,反而增添他们的忧虑。我的出现是好还是坏呢?我不知道!我很茫然!我该怎么办?我反复的思考,可是我还是不能解决问题。由谁能帮忙我呢?没人!我真得很需要一个人的指点,但是要找到这个知音,似乎有点难。无论如何,我还是得坦然的面对他。我不能因为压力,而逃避,应以自信去克服它。我要相信我自己,我不能因为它而被打垮,不能轻易的放弃,这不像是平常的我。加油!当让我相信主耶稣基督会帮助我解决问题的。